Up, Down Left, Right Of Jasmond's Life.: 04/01/2004

Thursday, April 29, 2004

Hais. Sick for 5 days le ba. Didn't see doctor because I lazy. Haha. =x Hmm, later going to play basketball ba. ZhiRong coming back to school again to play basketball. Haha. Tomorrow maybe meeting BiJun & gang ba. Going out "walk walk". Heh. =P Today school's quite boring lo It's like come school to waste time. Hais. Hmm, long time nv talk to Yun le wor. Kind of miss her. Haha. =X Saw here today with Qin. As usual, their playing around. Hah. Thinking of signing on wor. But some other plans does not allow me to do so. Hais. Dunno what to do wor. Go NS 2 years then come out? or Go NS sign on for the money? Hais.

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Hmm, quite a number of days never blog. Heh. Been sick since sunday ba. Still got to go school for attendance. Hais. Went to RevZone with "O" yesterday. Heh. Had fun while we were talking business. I mean real business. Haha. Hmm, keep coughing the whole night. Today I just found out that my hotmail has been flooded. Haha. Now trying to clear while writing this post. =P Hmm, think got to end here for today. =D

Monday, April 26, 2004

愛是一種感覺, 即使痛苦也會覺得幸福
愛是一種體會, 即使心碎也會覺得甜蜜
愛是一種經驗, 即使破碎也會覺得美麗
喜歡跟愛是不一樣的~~
喜歡是盪秋遷..可以自得其樂..不需要別人的回應
愛是翹翹板.

Hais. Friday went out with ZhiRong, BiJun & the gang. Haha. Met them after they had their SuShi buffet. Heh. before that, I was in school playing basketball again. Haha. Then I sneaked in the auditorium to watch the performances as Galdys told me maybe I could go in through the back stairs. Haha. Had some refreshments at the auditorium after the performances & rushed home to wash up & change before going to meet up with ZhiRong, BiJun & the gang. =P We had fun ba. Saw Ivy & Alvin at Eunos MRT platform while I was on my way home. I chatted with them for a while before heading out of the MRT & to the bus stop. Saturday went to have lunch with my Mum at the Mac nearby my house. Brought my nephew along as he have to attend a birthday party over there. He cried the whole party man. Haha. He quieten down only when he was having his meal. Haha. Kids nowadays. =X Hmm, Met up with Chun Chong, You Wei & You Wei's poly friends as it's his birthday. We had dinner at The Marshe (Not sure if it's spelled this way. Haha!). After the dinner, we went to a pub near bugis ba. It's a karaoke pub. We had fun over there. I drank quite alot. =P After I went back I can't sleep. =X Haha.

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Didn't blog yesterday. Don't have the mood & time ba. Been trying to catch up with my school work. I've been trying very very hard lo. Can only blame myself for slacking & missing lessons. tired of study life man. Real tired. Maybe I really should go NS after graduate ba. It's time le. Haha. Decided to study & work at the same time after NS. Should be of no problem ba. Been giving alot of problems to my mum these few months. School fees, monthly bills, school attendance bla bla bla. Haha. Maybe after I go NS her burden would be lessen ba. =/ Been a very very very very heavy burden to this family. Got alot of plans inside my head. Whether those plans will be carried out will have to depend on the decision I make to go NS or not. Hais. What can I do?! I'm born in Singapore.

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

万箭刺心痛, 伤心也无用. 伤口无法复, 潦倒过一生. =/

Monday, April 19, 2004

Hah. Blogging in school. =P Went to play basketball after school on friday. Saw ZhiRong & cleared up the knot between us. Haha. Shloudn't be any problem le ba. Haha. Saw BiJun & Tina in school. Don't know why they go. Haha. Meet ZhiRong? Hmm, in the end I went out with them lor. Heh. Enjoyed myself. Hmm, sent BiJun home & went straight home. On saturday, I met up with Yit Sin & watched the movie "HellBoy". The movie storyline was kind of stupid by the way. Haha. But quite a nice show overall. After dinner, went to meet my old primary school classmate. Can't imagine after so many years we Manage to get back in contact. All thanks to friendster. Haha. Went to play basketball with You Wei yesterday. we cycled down & met up at bedok cc. Played quite a number of games with the people over there. They lost all the way. Haha. We cycled down to tampines & played there. Played with a group of Thais. I think. Haha. They played quite well. Hmm, after the game I rushed back home with my bicycle. Took a bath & rushed out to meet "O". Actually we wanna go Revzone. A cafe pub ba. Hmm, but she got toothache. She went to the dentist & went for an operation. Heh. I was so scared man. the sounds made by the tools of the dentist. EEEEEEEEEWWWWW!!! Haha. Luckily it's not me. =P Sent her back as she needs rest after the operation to take out her wisdom tooth. Reached home around 10.40pm & had my take-away "Char Kuay Tiao" as dinner or I should say supper. Haha. Hmm, reached school damn early this morning & I decided to have my breakfast. Had my meal & head straight to foyer for morning assembly. Hais.

Friday, April 16, 2004

Haha. So long since I last went for assembly. This morning I made it to assembly. Haha. Hmm, it seems that I don't have the need to go as attendance was not taken. -.-" LoLx. Hmm, after my break I saw Gladys at I-Ned a song at I-Net et. She seems so sianz. So I went forward to chat with her a little. I dedicated a song to cheer her up. Haha. Sleeping Child again. Hmm, wrote this post while doing lab. Hah. Hope my com can be fixed by next week. =)

Thursday, April 15, 2004

Hais. Yesterday was a tired day. Went school early in the morning for make up class. Hah. Percentage below 90%. Got to go make up lesson until percantage is make up till 95%. Hais. After school felt bored, so went to basketball court to see people play basketball. Initially too tired to play basketball but in the end still went to play. Haha. After playing basketball, I was heading back home & I saw Roger. Chatted with him at I-Net & dedicated a few songs using the SMS JukeBox. Michael Learns to Rock's Sleeping Child. Haha. Nice song huh?! Hais. Saw WenWen while I was on the way home & chatted with her. Reached home & did some conditioning with my brother-in-law. Should be going jogging but he was lazy. Haha. Hais. Got to end here. =P

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Hais. So tired. Woke up late again this morning. Hah. Everyday late. LoLx. =X Yesterday meeting till around 8.45pm lo. Initially the meeting venue is at school canteen. But they changed the venue last minute. Alot of us not imformed. Chun An & I waited at the canteen for more than a hour before we were informed that the venue was changed to Sing post. Hais. after meeting went home to have dinner & went to bed. I'm still very tired. Don't know why. Hais. Body failing ba. LoLx. Hmm, recently I found out that asking people out is such a chore. Very hard to find people out. Either they not free or never reply my sms-es. Hais. I'm too annoying? LoLx. Just like what I wrote previously. Everything seems to be turning against me. Life sux~ Hais~

Monday, April 12, 2004

Hmm, blogging in school again. Hah. Everything turned against me since I went to Ubin camp. =/ Went to camp on Saturday & came back on Sunday. After the camp we went to tampines Mac to have our brunch. During the lunch I felt so extra. I don't have the mood to eat. It's as if the couples are surrounding me. In front of me, Andy & Eileen. On the right side, Alvin & Ivy. On my left, Chun An & HuiYun. (Although they're not couple, but they behave like one.) Hais. What can I do? I'm damn quiet the whole meal. So is HuiYun & Chun An. Maybe because the group teased them. . . Arghh! Nvm, it's none of my business anyway. I went back home after our brunch. When i reached home, i noticed my mum simply threw everything she cleared from the living room into my room. even the study desk too. Arghh! I decided not to care too much. Everything is just not right. After washing up, I slept till this morning. Went to school late, cause I missed 6 buses. All fully packed unable to get on board. Can you imagine it? 6 buses!!! =/

Thursday, April 08, 2004

Hais. Blogging in school again. Before I blog, I was browsing around my friend's blogs. It seems that alot of my friends are somehow depressed or I should say sad. Everyone has a knot deep inside them, it's only how that person view it as a "dead knot" or a "ribbon decoration"??? Haha. I'm not good in explaining things in english. Actually what i meant is the attitude towards life & how you view it. There's a popular saying, "You view the cup of water as half full or half empty". In life, no matter which road you choose to take, it'll lead you to somewhere. What's important is journey to your destination & not just the destination itself. The journey is the learning process to make you excell after you reach the destination. Hais. I miss my dad. Used to listen to him talk about the theories in life etc. T.T Hais. Why am I saying all these??? Hmm, think Jane will be back from Malaysia today ba. Kind of miss her. Haha. Miss disturbing her wor. =P Hmm, I cancelled today's Marketing meeting for sports fiesta. By doing this, the people can have a good rest & more time to finish up their works. They're stressed out. Hmm, think I shall end here. Tomorrow will be a better day. =)

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

Hais. My comp is down. This time really down. Got to ask the "Professionals" to fix it. Hope the computer's warranty still valid. Haha. If not, I'll be spending lots of money. Hais. My mei is so troubled these few days. Felt that I'm really useless as I can't do much to help her. Hais. The only things I could do is to console & console & console... Hais. At last the blog now seems a little more tidy. But still not what I wanted initially. Last but not least, I would like to thanks those who care for me. Thanks! Without the support from them I will not be able to hang on till now...

Monday, April 05, 2004

Today can be considered a long day ba. Went school early in the morning, but still missed assembly. Managed to get to the foyer only after the flag raising & stuffs are completed. Hah. Today's mood can be considered ok ba. Cause my problems seems to be so far away today. Been trying to help my mei, Ines with her problems. Held a meeting during my lunch break. Got some updates with Qin & splitted up the workload with my deparment's people. Hais. They will need alot of guidance but I don't know when they will be able to let me guide them. Haha. They are so busy with other stuffs. Hmm, played basketball after school & went home around 5pm. Maybe I'm too tired of my problems & stuffs like that, "they" let me rest for a day or so. Haha. Hmm, I'll update this blog more often ba. Listen to my Mei~!! Heh. Think I'll end here, cause I'm going to do more changes to the blog.

Sunday, April 04, 2004

I've read the essay before. I think it's about a few years back when I read this essay. It's a very very good one I can say. I'm not sure who is the real author of the essay, cause it seems that there's many websites hosting the essay. Hmm, I been drinking the past few days. Yesterday I broke down again, but i recovered fast. I admit I drank alot, but i was not drunk. I was chatting with Eddie. When i talked about my father again, I broke down in tears. The tears came fast & gone fast. There's lots of lots of things inside me, but only a portion of it I talk about it. Because I know, some things are best to be kept only to yourself. Humans tends to share their feelings, their unhappiness because they want others to understand them & also to make him/herself feel better. I'm still a human. That's the reason I share what's inside me. It's a form of stress relieving ba. In my life, unhappy things are never ending. They come, they go & they come back again in another form. One thing comes after another. This saying does not apply to me. Because before one is gone, another comes. There's no ending. I'm very very tired. When I'm tired of life, I will drink. I wish to be alone, but I don't want loneliness. It's the contradiction I face now. I'm tired of life. I'm tired of problems. I don't want unhappiness.

人生就是为了找寻爱的过程，每个人的人生都要找到四个人。
第一个是自己,
第二个是你最爱的人，
第三个是最爱你的人，
第四个是共度一生的人.
首先会遇到你最爱的人，然後体会到爱的感觉；
因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；
当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的，
也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。
但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人；
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？
没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，
可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，
他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；
同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你。
当一个人不爱你要离开你，
你要问自己还爱不爱他，
如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；
如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐，
希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了，
而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？
爱不是占有，
你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里，
但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。
换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有，
让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆，
如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子─爱他的好，也爱他的坏：
爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点，
绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子，
万一变不成就不爱他了。
真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你；
真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。
毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得；
分开是一种必然的考验，
如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输，
真爱是不会变成怨恨的。
两人在谈情说爱的时候，
最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓，
就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人，
而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际：
海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱!
明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒；
就算会，也活不到那时候。
许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言，
最好是承诺做不到的事，
反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧，
请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人”
在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套；
讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。
你呢？找到了第几个？
茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？

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