Yup. I've changed my blog. Though blog has changed but I still can't blog everyday! Haha. The most i can do is every week. yes, one post per week. Alot of things to write, so I think I'll just briefly write out. Monday till Friday noon I was at tekong. Went out with cc & yw on firday evening till midnight. Had dinner with cc at pasta maniac & saw Ines Went play billiard with cc while waiting for yw to knock off from work. Then we went play lan. LoLs. Hmm, met up with xm to watch movie, "The Incredibles". It was so damn nice. Haha. After that we went to scout present for Sharon. Decided to buy something from borders, but not sure what type of books to buy. So I bought a gift card (sort of gift vouchers) as the present & bought a birthday card at taka. After sending xm to the bus stop in the evening, I went to the BK just opposite somerset mrt. Sat there & listened to mp3s which is in my phone. Haha. After meeting up with Sharon & handed her the present, I went to mos burger which also is opposite somerset mrt & listened to my mp3s again. Haha. In the end I cancelled all "appoinments" and sat there for almost two and a half hour listening to mp3s. Lols. Don't ask me why, I just don't feel like going anywhere. Don't know why. Haha. Went home after that & online till 1am plus. Hais. What a boring day except for the movie part. Haha. Think I got to end here. My post is getting boring.
p/s: the following people please take note. sharon, happy birthday! xm, thanks for accompanying me on sat. bj, i'm glad you are handling it well. i know what you are going through. i've been through it. please be strong. ines, i'm glad you've grown. pls take care. serina, sorry i've made you feel that way. i just need some quiet time. candice, pls take care. sorry but i must disagree with you. each and single person is unique. what you saw are just the minority of the people.
人生波折重重，起起落落。凡是都要看开一点，不要太执著。不是吗? 做人嘛，就是要开心。对吗？虽然很多事情不是想象中那么简单. 也没有想象中那么容易解决。 但是只要能够看破与放下，事情就没有那么烦了。我说了那么多，似乎什么都做不到。
戴着面具的日子好难过。负担越来越沉重，我快喘不过气了。
“世间烦恼多，一生烦不尽。”
"烦恼随风去, 万事无绝对. 人生经历多, 智慧倍增加"
p/s: thanks all for giving me advice & support. I really appreciate it. Thanks.
Oh my. . .too much negative things happen around me. Damn... Why do I still take my time my effort trying to console someone when I'm down myself? Because I'm nosey? No!!! All because I care!!! But it seems I'm not appreciated. Clear pictures of the happenings around me begin to appear. Things are getting clearer & clearer. But I don't wanna know so much!!! It will only add on to my burden. But what can I do..?
Yeah, I'm different. I've changed. So what? Who cares? I don't even care so why bother so much? I have my own problems & I want to solve it myself. I don't need sympathies. I don't need listening ears. I just need a shoulder to lean on. A shoulder for me to cry. I just need someone who listens from the heart..! Yes, I will be told that there's still god. And yes, I believe in god but religious form of relieves are of not much help for me. I'm just a damned idiot whom now is far away from god, far away from devil or whatever shit... I'm in isolation. I chose to isolate myself & I chose to be damned. I deserve what I'm going through now. My world is in chaos & everything is not right. Isolation seems to be the best option for me because it gives me the silence I want. It provides me the right mood to think.
I miss my dad badly. How come the feeling is getting stronger each day? Time will heal...doesn't it? It doesn't seem so. I've not done my duty as a son.
I hate myself...
