Sunday, February 01, 2004

1st day of february... LoL~ Cant get to sleep. Too bored I think. Hardly ate anything the whole day but supper. Ate alot during supper. Heh. Hmm, I've been thinking alot about my life. The things I've been through, what I've experienced & so on. Tried to stop myself from thinking so much, but so far stil unable to succeed. =P Probably those who always listen to my problems have heard umpteen of times from me that I'm tired of my life, tired of the reality, the society etc. But somehow I still managed to live through it. Several times I've thought to myself if I'm just trying to get sympathies from others by saying all the stuffs of being tired or whatever. Maybe it's just my way of venting my grievance or something. I becoming to hate being alone. Because when I'm alone, I tends to think alot. When I think, all my problems, grievance & all the unhappiness from my past will eventually re-surface. I'm not trying to run away from them, I just don't wanna think of them. I've had had enough already. I want to live life anew. I wanna live a life with a brand new me, whom will face others without wearing a "mask". A person whom will laugh from the heart & not putting on an act. Truthfully, I don't know how long I've been in the "acting industry". Well, I can say that no one in this world can really understand me. Even those that are close to me don't really know me that well. I can say it's just a tip of an iceberg.

posted by Jasmond @ 1:15:00 AM